Mid July

Hello, gooood morning my dear blog!

   I am again one step closer to August, to school and it seems like my schedule before that is already busy! I do however Like to be busy, to do something, be somewhere and luckly I get to spend a whole week with my dad and visit my grandmother who I haven't seen in so long. I love my family and it is always a pleasent time with them!
But to think that everything comes down to one date - August 7th -  the day I will find out if the US embassy will give me the Visa to attend YWAM or not.. This is So very exciting yet so frightning. I am told all the time not to be afraid but I cannot help it at the moment. I will continue to pray that God would take my fear away so that I will not be afraid, but to have peace in my heart and the right words in my mouth to speak up at the interview.
And to think about it.. when I get the visa.. I have so little time to babaysit all the kids I have been babysitting, to see my friends and family, to gather all my money I have made or got through some amazing people who have been so generous to me, and then it would be time to fly and follow my God with the dreams I have had in me for a Long time!! To have Faith in God, that He will take me to it and through it!! Why else do I have -Today Go in Faith- written on my arm/wrist.

Bible talkes about one boy who had demons in him and his father was greatly conserned and worried. He brought his son to the disciples to heal him, but they could not do it and in Matthew 17:17 it says " O unbelieving and perverse generation," Jesus replied, "how long shall I put up with you? Bring the boy here to me."
18 Jesus rebuked the demon, and it came out of the boy, and he was healed from that moment.
19 Then the disciples came to Jesus in private and asked, "Why couldn't we drive it out? "

20 "He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."   
if we just have as small faith as mustard seed.. and to think.. mustard seed is TINY

To have faith in God. To trust Him that He truly knows what is best for me, when something is best for me and how something is best for me!
He loves me, doesn't he!! So He must know the BEst for Me!

Please be prayng with me, to have Faith in God and that all my fears would melt away, to have peace in my heart when I go to the embassy.

How funny.. It is mid July and I am already conserned what will happen in August.. that again reminds me the wize words of Jesus in Luke 12:22

Then Jesus said to his disciples; "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. 
24Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them And how much more valuable you are than birds!
25Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? 26Since you cannot do this verly little thing, why do you worry about the rest?


I should not worry about August, since I still have about 3 weeks to raise my 2500€ for the school.
Oh God help me not to worry about it !

Have a blessed day, and do not worry about today!

Liis

Summertime so busy

It is already July and I have been busy enough to miss my home! To be home with my dear cat and just enjoy the quietness around my home.
Summer has already reached the month of July and I have been to two camps in a row. I can feel how my body is just tired and my soul is looking for some peace!
I haven't written in a long time and I kinda miss that. I miss writing down my feelings (yes we sometimes have a lot of feelings, like my friend likes to say) wothout being afraid who might see them!
This time of the year will be somewhat emotional for me.
My closest friends are leaving for Texas very very soon, and my grandpa will return home as well. I haven't even spent so much time with them but already it is time for them to leave.
 Now I undestand what: time goes by so fast, means, because it has literally went by so very fast that I feel like I have missed some of the days.
But I can't tell you that I have slept through a lot of them because I haven't. It is just the fact that when you spend time with your people you simply don't have enough hours in one day!
I wonder how much sleep Jesus got when he was on earth! I mean he loved his disciples and the people he spent time with. Did he ever slept in? I don't think so! I bet they used as much of the hours in one day, they could! I have to ask Jesus one day!
But coming back to the summertime and the fact that it is already July.. Ohh my gooodness!!!
Is it just me, the fact that I am a girl, or it is just me?
I have so many different feelings coming up about September, that I just Cannot wait to see what God has planned for me!
I have definitely learned how to be more patient, how to be humble, how to share my dreams with people and I hope that God will continue to teach me and I am willing to accept whatever needs to be done in my life. 
And whatever happens in September, I know that God has the best plan for Me! Because knowing me I know that God knows me more. 
Jeremiah 1:5  

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew^a you,

before you were born I set you apart;

I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”

I mean how cool is that right?

So I have to trust my future in God hands and really, with all my heart. I am hopefully going to learn this cause if I don't I will be in trouble.

I am just so very excited to see what's gonna happen!

Ohh dear blog,

I just pray that I won't give up and keep on going in faith and hope, I have given in God!

"Dear God please be with me to comfort me and to encourage me throughout the summer, please keep me away from evil and the thoughts that are from evil! I want to be humple and teachable and I pray that my heart would be opened to you, soft like clay that you can use in molding me the way you see is the best, I pray this in Jesus name, Aamen"