Weeks go by!

Hello my dear friends,

I haven't written anything in two weeks already so I am sorry for that! It has been quite busy for us and we haven't had a lot of internet time as well!

But I want to tell you of everything that has been going on here :)

So the second week we focused on Father heart of God and let me tell you something-it was an incredible time. I think the first day I could not hold my tears back, my face was wet from all the tears!
it was emotional for a lot of people and very refreshing and renewing!
For me at least. I was reminded of so many things about my Father, the God almighty! We talked about how we often see our God according to how we see our earthly dads, so depending on our relationship with our own dad, we see God the same way, uncomplete. 

The speaker reminded me that I need to know who I am in God, as his daughter in order to be helpful to others around the world!
I really enjoyed the time we had with the speaker, because he prayed for many of us and had revelations for some students. God spoke to us that week through our speaker!

We also started talking about dangerous territories - bible and what's in bible and how we know it's the truth and how we can use bible to speak to people with different beliefs! It was very awesome and I am so excited to have many more classes on those topics, cause the first one was a short one!

During that week we had to start praying for our outreach countries. We were shown precentations on different locations and had to take time in prayer to find out where we were called!
Our options were:
Thailand-Myanmar,
India,
Mexico,

Uganda.

The third week we didn't have many lectures, on Monday we had to write down the outreach country we prayed for and felt led to. Mine was ....!
I was so sure that .... will be the country where I am called but the more I prayed and talked to people about different countries, asking questions, my heart was set on ....! I was so moved by the video I saw the first week, of the street kids, aids kids, girls in brothels and how we are able to connect with them, serve them and love on them!
I am so excited to see how God will be using me there.. How I will learn from that culture and those people, and share God’s love with His daughters and sons.

 We left for survival camp on Wednesday - we had to get ready, before that take a test on how well we know South America.

But let me tell you what happened during out survival camp:

First of all,
We had a packing list, of things we could take, it was limited..
like 3pairs of socks, two pairs of pants etc.
We weren't allowed to take any toothpaste or any deodorant, no cosmetics and stuff like that.
We had four tribes and each tribe had to sit together in the bus.

When we got to the place we were dropped off in the middle of nowhere and we had to wait with our team for next instructions from a staff member! 

That night we had to go through customs with our "passports" . They also searched us, if we had items we were not allowed to take with us! Some of us had, and some didn’t. They tried real hard to be serious and harsh on us. Each of our team member was given a scoop of rice and beans and we were sent off to our campsite, each team with their own camp site! And the first night after putting our stuff down we had to play capture the flag. It was exciting and fun. Excitement caused by the darkness and the forest around us. Fun with different teams trying to take our flag!
The next day was a long day for us! We woke up on the sound of our „government signal“ and had to hurry to meet others. We missed our breakfast because of our sleep. The entire day was long and fun and freezing cold. We had team building games and we were able to earn prizes by winning the games. Our team got a second place in one game and we earned 5h of sleep for the next night. We got the last place in a canoe game and earned 6 slices of cheese. Also a second place for this another game and earned half a roll of toiled paper! FUn, FUN!!
We cooked some lunch over a fire, our team member bulit – we had rice and beans.. was that a good luch or what!
We saw a chicken-killing, it was terrible and made me not want any chicken for a while and were treated terrible, like prisoners, while getting our dinner!
Sadly our camp was over sooner then we hoped for- due to a bad astma attack, one girl had!
That night we prayed and worshiped God, praying that everything would be ok and no matter what, God will receive all the glory!
We didn’t know that one of the staff members got a panic attack as well. But God was great and took care both of them. That night we all slept in a warehouse and ended our survival camp earlier!
We survived, and everybody was ok!
Two of the girls who had attacks were not sent to a hospital but put on a bed rest for the next day. They joined us back at the base the next evening!
What a crazy week we had!

On Saturday we spent time in town, doing laundry and watching a movie with bunch of girls and a guy from our base. I think he got enough of girl time for the rest of the school program.
God took care of us this week,

And He will never stop loving us!

Love you,
Liis

New Beginnings!

 Hello everybody,

I am so sorry I haven’t been able to get online since here in Madison, Wisconsin!
Our first week of DTS is over and it has already been an amazing week. All the kids here are so friendly and it hasn’t been very hard to meet people and spend time with them!
I want to share a little bit of what we have learned during this week:
Our week was about hearing God’s voice, and during the days we were sent outside to spend a lot of time with God.. it was challenging because this week I have had a hard time focusing, and getting plugged in with God. I don’t know why it is like this but it made me sad a lot of times. I kinda felt empty, when hearing my classmates sharing how God spoke to them through the wind, or sitting on the cornfield, or reading bible and I had nothing to share.. Nothing during the quiet time..

But it changed when God showed me a scripture in bible during our last quiet time in between classes..

Isaiah 29:13 says:

„ The Lord says: These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. Their worship of me is based on merely human rules they have been thought.“

This made me realise that maybe my heart hasn’t plugged in, and it made sense cause I didn’t really prepare my heart while in TX, so it made sense..

But when I look back on the lesson time, I think of the book we had to read this week, it is called „ Is that really you, GOD?“ by Loren Cunningham.

I really enjoyed reading this book and it was so exciting to read about his visions for YWAM before the school was formed. All the amazing things that God did, gave me goosebumps. It made me think how Big God can be when He has so big Ideas for our lives, and for him, Loren, who got his first glimpse of what God had planned for him, when he was only 13 years old. You have to read this book to understand and experience those moments yourself. Whoever is interested in the story how YWAM was started, should read this book!

What I really liked about our lesson in hearing God’s voice was, that God has a way to speak to everybody in their own special way. Like God knows how to talk to you so that You could hear him!
What I learned also from the lesson this week was that you have to understand who is in charge of your thoughts and ideas. There is a saying that: When God closes a door, he’ll open a window, or something like that. But you have to know God, and his character to recognize if it was him who opened the door or closed it. It could also be Satan, or you yourself.
SO it really helped me because now I want to get to know him and his character real good in order to understand his plans, and to hear His voice not mine or Satans!

THis week we also got our one-on-ones : A person we will spend time with (a staff member) and talk to and pray with! WE will also have small groups where we will discuss our lessons, and share our stories, what God has told us this week etc.
What was really awesome about this week was that, even though it was our first week, we were so open to share our stories, or memories of what happened to us when we were younger. Some people really opened up and shared personal experiences with everybody. It was nice to get to know people through their happy moments or something sad that has happened to them.
I enjoy listening to our stories, it makes you feel like one big hamily! And we are, one big family here in DTS!

I hope I am able to keep you guys updated as much as I can.
PLease keep me in prayers, I will be very thankful!!

Prayer request!

My dear friends,

I ask you to join me in prayer. Since I've been here in Texas, everything has been so wonderful. All my friends have been so nice to me and so caring! It is so hard for me to sometimes understand the love God wants to show me through my friends!
There is just one little thing that is bothering me.. after talking to my friend about what is bothering my heart, she told me to post this here so people could pray for me.
So I turn to you my friends, please pray for me as I will be leaving for YWAM, Madison, this coming Sunday, pray that I can overcome these little obstacle's I have with my visa.
When I made it to the customs in Atlanta, they had told me I can only stay here in the US 6months at a time, and because I came 2 weeks earlier, my visa will end about 2 weeks before my training program will end in Madison. I wrote my school about that fact and they told me it is ok if my visa will end before, that I would get enough credit to finish the program and turn home earlier then everybody else. Hearing that, made me so sad. I really had hoped for a different ending to my program here in Wisconsin, and it was hard for me to see that I might have to return home earlier, unless... after spending time out of the States for a month or so (before my 6 months is over), and on my return, visiting this office, I might be given an extentsion. But this might not be happening.

So my prayer is that God would do a miracle, I really want to stay here until the program is over. And I pray for trust in Him, that if He brought me here, he won't bring me back before my time is over. Though I don't know what God has planned for me and maybe returning home earlier is part of His plan in my life..
Please pray with me that whatever happens with the Visa,
#is it a miracle that I can stay here until the program is over, go back to Texas and spend a bit more time with friends, then return home;
#or leaving the program earlier then others,
that I would still bring glory to him, in everything, in every situation!

Thank you for being supportive and thinking about me and praying over me!
I am so blessed to have my brother's and sister's in Christ!

Liis

Travelling

Hello my dear,

I haven't posted is a long time and I am sorry for that. There is actually so much to say about all that has been happening in my life and how Generous God has been, how loving and the best care taker, He is with me!!
I am just gonna breafly say that God took care of my school intuition and noh he Will help me with outreach fees! He Loves me and I do not deserve that, but I am still loved, worth it or not, cause Jesus died for my sins!

I wanted to write about my trip to US, it was loooooooong but I made it, safely!
This time I will also write in Estonian, because there might be some people, who prefer their own language:)

So it all started in ESTONIA, TALLINN, August 28 and it all started and hour later than it should have!
So my first flight was late in Tallinn already and it made me think if I will make it to the next flight or not. Estonian air was very nice though, a small airplane but since the flight was only about 2h to Paris, it was no biggy! But when we landed in Paris I only had about 10-15 min to catch my flight and I knew I also had to check-in again to get my next ticket.. I don't know why they did that, but I knew there is no way I am gonna make it. And I knew it already before knewing how Huge the airport in PAris is.. Good that I wasn't wanting to run and try to catch my flight. SO I had to get a next flight to TX but the people at the service said I will have to fly through another state because there is no more straigt flights to TX. I got a flight through Atlanta, Georgia and I had about 2,5h before that flight.
Getting to the right place was hard, because like I mentioned, Paris airport is Huge!! I almost got lost and I had to ask for directions fiew times, but I made it, to get to the right place I had to get on a fast train, like the underground one, that took me to the right place. Btw did you know that even Paris airport after going through the security is like a fashion city.. they had a lot of high fashion brand stores and it looked like a huge mall somewhere nice! I was not even wanting to go in there and see what they sell, cause if I like something I know I would not be able to afford it, ever.. probably!
But waiting for my flight was good, I even got to be online for 15min, before I had to start paying for my internet time. So that gave me a chance to tell Courtney and Ralph that instead of 2pm I will be in Houston airport 23:05 !
My flight to Atlanta was quite nice. We had a nice big plane and I was seated under the window and there was no neighbours next to me, so I had space to get comfortable!
Flight to Atlanta was 9,5h and I was able to sleep a little bit, enjoy one meal on the plane, that was eatable, and watch two movies and a tv show! The last snack/meal was not so good and I think my tummy was not happy to eat it, and because I was in the air for so long I started feeling a bit sick as well.
When I made it to Atlanta and passed the security and thought oh I get to go to my gate pretty easily, I was wrong. Instead of going to pick up my luggage and checking it in again I was escorted to a box, made out of glass. I wasn't alone.. the guy who escorted said I have to go there and wait until they call my name, he did not say why I was sent there..scary huh?..
Well when I got in there there was quite a lot of people, also one guy from France, who was on the same flight with me, not one of them looked calm, or happy. I tried really hard not to think anything negative or be look scared, but inside I was! I had no idea what they will ask me or what happens next. I was basically the last one they asked to come out and talk to the security. They asked my why I was there, why for so long, and some other questions. I showed them my school letter so that saved me from talking a lot.. because I was sceared and couldn't get the words out at the beginnign, but after they checked my luggage, told me I can be in the States only 6months, telling me how good my english is that I sound like a valley girl, and telling me that they don't want to catch me working, also that I have to leave the country before 6months to be able to finish my program, and fly home, not stay here, I was able to go..!!! I was able to get to my gate and I still had enough time to grab something to drink&eat ! I was so releaved. I also saw the guy from France and he was very happy as well. I bet.. Anybody who goes through 30min of not knowing what is going on and being scared they will be sent back, will be happy when walking freely at the airport and waiting for the next flight!

From Atlanta to Houston, the flight was short but I was out! I slept the whole time, opened my eyes only for twice, I was just so tired of everything, I didn't even want to fly, but I had to. Seeing Houston in night lights made me happy to be there, to be in TX and not to worry about flying for another 2weeks!
Now I am here in TX, in Bryan, writing you a letter at 5AM, time when I should be sleeping, but I am not.. I think it might be "airplane tiredness" ha ! Well I am happy and blessed and loved!
God took good care of me while travelling!

Thank you everybody who supported me and prayed for me! Prayer's where heard !

Reis USA’sse:
Algas minu jaoks Eestist, 28 August ja lõppeb siis Texases õhtul kell 23:05. Lisaks sellele tuleb veel Bryan’isse ka jõuda!

Tänane päev on olnud väga pikk!
Lennujaama jõudes ei olnud mul veel tunnet, et lähen reisile, täitsa tavaline olek oli. Lisaks sellele meie lend hilines umbes tund aega, kuna nad ootasid teiselt lennult tulevat stjuuardessi. Seega jõudsime Pariisi tund aega hiljem ja ma jäin automaatselt maha oma järgmisest lennust Houston’isse.
Pidin minema siis custom service’isse, et broneerida uus lend Texasesse. Neil oli pakkuda lend, mis läheb läbi Atlanta, Georgia ja jõuab Houston’i lennujaama kell 23:05.
Lend Atlantasse algas väga hästi, kuid lõpp vajus juba käest ära, sest olla lennukis 9tundi järjest ei ole kõige mugavam ja lõbusam tegevus. Ma isegi tundsin, nagu mul oleks paha olla, umbes nagu bussi või laevaga sõites. Tundub, et ma ei talu väga pikki reise!
Jõudes siis Atlantasse, mul polnud õrna aimugi, mis mind ees ootab.

Minnes läbi security’st ei saanud ma kohe edasi liikuda lennujaama sisse, kõigepealt, mu pass pandi kollase äärega läbipaistvasse kilekotti ja paluti minna lähedal oleva töötaja juurde, kes mind siis pidi edasi eskortima. Alguses ma mõtlesin, et okei kuna olen international, siis nad ehk hoolitsevad mu eest ja saadavad mu õigesse kohta, kuid tegelikult see ei olnud nii, ma mõtlesin küll, et miks mu pass pandi sellisesse kotti ja varsti sain ma aru miks.
Nimelt mind saadeti siis kõrval asuvasse läbipaistvasse poksi, kus olid ka teised inimesed peale minu. Tundus, et nad kõik oleksid sattunud pahandustesse ja nüüd nad siis pidid ootama mingis eraldatud boksis, et teada saada, kas nad üldse saavad siseneda Ameerika riiki.
Seal boksis oli ka üks minuga samalt lennult tulnud prantslane. Ta ei paistnud väga rõõmus olevat. Ma muidugi seostasin seda kohta automaatselt ühe filmi olukorraga, kus briti tüdruk sisenedes Ameerika riiki, viidi ülekuulamisele, kuna ta oli eelnevalt oma visa ajast üle olnud. Ning minu boksi juures oli ka investigation room või noh ülekuulamisruum, intervjueerimisruum!
Mu süda peksis kõvasti terve selle aja seal oodates ja kuulates kuidas mõningad inimesed juba endast välja läksid ja vastavat kõnepruuki kasutasid.

Ma tundsun nagu on võimalus, et ma ei pääsegi USA’sse ja see ajas mind segadusse ja pani kartma. Ma üritasin kõigest väest siiski rahulikuna püsida, ja mitte paista ärritunud. Kui ma olin seal juba näinud enamus inimesi ära minevat, siis tuli ka minu kord minna turvatöötaja juurde, kes laua taga istus ja vastata küsimustele. Nimelt minult küsiti minu siinviibimise põhjust ja rääkides, et olen vabatahtlikuna programmis nimega YWAM , oli mul hea meel, et olin koolipoolt vastava kirja kaasa võtnud. Kui nad küsisid, et kus ma inglise keelt olen õppinud, siis nad olid imestunud, et see on saavutatud Eestis olles, kuna ühel turvatöötajal olevat sõber eestist, kelle inglise keel on vene aksendiga. Minu puhul seda ei olnud muidugi, nad ütlesid, et olen nagu Valley girl, mida iganes see peaks ka tähendama! Ha..

Edasi palusid nad mul tuua ära oma kohver ja minna sellega edasi järgmise mehe juurde, kes pidi minult samuti küsimusi esitama ja veenduma minu kohvri sisus. See oli natukene naljakas, kuidas se mees võttis lahti mu kohvri ja uuris läbi mu kõik asjad, seega ta nägi ka minu isiklikke esemeid, mida tavaliselt  võõrastele ei näidata (aluspesu jne). Sama tegi ta ka mu seljakoti ja booklet kotiga. Samuti ta küsis, kui suure summaga ma reisin, sest rahakotis mul ju raha ei olnud, kuid ta oli rahul, nähes mu suurt „rahakukrut“. Seejärel pidin minema sama mehe juurde tagasi ja ta pani mulle templid igalepoole ja ütles, et võin Ameerikas viibida ainult 6kuud, peale seda peaksin lahkuma, kuid see peaks toimuma ennem kui 6kuud läbi saab ja seejärel tagasi tulles minema mingisse kontorisse, kus ma saan pikendust. Kuid ta ütles, et kui see programm läbi saab, siis tuleks ikka koju minna peale seda!
Samuti lisati, et ma ei tohi töötada, et they don’t want to catch me working, I got that !
Andes passi tagasi, saingi tulema, nüüd ootan oma lendu, sest mul on veel aega. Tahaksin väga Starbucksi minna ja ühe kohveiini laksu osaliseks saada :D
Süüa tuleb ka, sest lennuki toit, mis meile viimasena veel anti, polnud just kõige parem, maitsvaim!
Njäm lähme siis USA burxi sööma :D

Shine

This week that I had was just amazing!
I was able to participate this event called Shine, held in my capital city, Tallinn!
Week full of ministry, workshops, youth festival, fellowship, international people and God!
Every day we had something new and every day I felt more closer to God, and I was more inspired to take time for Him, to talk to him to worship Him!
I just want to tell you what happened in my life during this week!
First of all, prayer room: we had this cool room for people to sign up for an hour or more, to go in there, take time off from shine and just pray. Pray for our nation, the people we are going to meet, the speakers, the other youth who were there, pray for ourselves, have a good time of fellowship! It totally worked. I was able to take more and more time for God, and I just loved it. The more I went there the more I yearned for Jesus!!
Then being brave and going on a outreach in the city. We had to choose one location where we wanted to serve our community and I chose beach outreach.. but it came out it was not a beach, it was a park, where people were relaxing and hanging out. We had to divide into groups and then while one group was praying for the people in the park and for another team, that team had to go to people and show them pictures. And whenever they were willing to take time off to see the pictures they were asked to show what pictures would go with their life at the moment or a situation they're in at the moment.
Our team was able to talk to fiew people and ask them questions and invite them to our events. I think I wanted to talk to them more about Jesus, God but at that moment I didn't have the words to speak out. I just prayed that those hearts would be opened for Jesus, so that He can take over!
Also meeting some youth from diffeent countries, who speak totally different language, but yet we have one GOD, one saviour, JESUS. The week I spent with those youth I felt so shy a lot of times. Kinda like all my courageness was taken away and I was a lot of times very shy thorwards people and meeting new people. I don't know what happened to me but I think it might have something to do with me getting to spend more time in a prayer room because of that!
I was able to meet some wonderful people though who I will miss and who I will remember, pray for and thank God for!
I also heard a new way of worship. Whenever we had evening events in Freedom square, there was a band, I call it a worship band, because I was truly able to worship God and hear their testimonies through rapping and singing! I felt touched by God several times, when listening to them and I am so thankful to you God for that!
And then also, during this week, something incredible happened to me, twice!!
First time, when God spoke to me this week was during a worship song, when I was praying to God and I was so into worshipping him, suddenly a lady I did not know came to me and told me she had a prophecy from God to me.
She started telling me how much God loves me and He has heard my cries, my tears and He has made me golden shoues to walk in and he will send me out to serve Him.
I started crying, GOD spoke to me through a person I did not know, but who was a servant of God. I was overwhelmed by joy and tears and happiness, I didn't know what to say but to hug her and thank her for coming to me because she was the answer to my prayers. God spoke to me!! He must love me.
Then second time God spoke to me was on our last day, end of our week when we had prayed over the countries and the people from different countries..first of all I want to tell you how amazing that was, we made a bridge out of our hands and the people from different countries started walking through it as we blessed them and after that we prayed for their country. We did that with every country participating  Shine week, and I tell you, that was a blessing to pray over those people and their mission in their homeland!
Then after that it happened: A girl I also did not know came to me and said: I was praying with some girls and while we were praying I somehow saw you surronded by kids. I don't know why I saw that but I thought I should come to you and say that!
I was shocked, Again!! I just sat down and stared at the floor.. what is up with God, He really wanted to talk to me. I was really amazed how much God can love me, me who I really don't deserve His love, but yet, He loves me so much, that I am to die for!!

This was my week in Tallinn!!
After this week my prayer has been to be a blessing in someone's life. I really want to walk with Christ every day, nothing is better in this world than God's love for me and my relationship with Him, my Abba!!
Praise the Lord for being so Good to me !!

Love you,
Liis

Mid July

Hello, gooood morning my dear blog!

   I am again one step closer to August, to school and it seems like my schedule before that is already busy! I do however Like to be busy, to do something, be somewhere and luckly I get to spend a whole week with my dad and visit my grandmother who I haven't seen in so long. I love my family and it is always a pleasent time with them!
But to think that everything comes down to one date - August 7th -  the day I will find out if the US embassy will give me the Visa to attend YWAM or not.. This is So very exciting yet so frightning. I am told all the time not to be afraid but I cannot help it at the moment. I will continue to pray that God would take my fear away so that I will not be afraid, but to have peace in my heart and the right words in my mouth to speak up at the interview.
And to think about it.. when I get the visa.. I have so little time to babaysit all the kids I have been babysitting, to see my friends and family, to gather all my money I have made or got through some amazing people who have been so generous to me, and then it would be time to fly and follow my God with the dreams I have had in me for a Long time!! To have Faith in God, that He will take me to it and through it!! Why else do I have -Today Go in Faith- written on my arm/wrist.

Bible talkes about one boy who had demons in him and his father was greatly conserned and worried. He brought his son to the disciples to heal him, but they could not do it and in Matthew 17:17 it says " O unbelieving and perverse generation," Jesus replied, "how long shall I put up with you? Bring the boy here to me."
18 Jesus rebuked the demon, and it came out of the boy, and he was healed from that moment.
19 Then the disciples came to Jesus in private and asked, "Why couldn't we drive it out? "

20 "He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."   
if we just have as small faith as mustard seed.. and to think.. mustard seed is TINY

To have faith in God. To trust Him that He truly knows what is best for me, when something is best for me and how something is best for me!
He loves me, doesn't he!! So He must know the BEst for Me!

Please be prayng with me, to have Faith in God and that all my fears would melt away, to have peace in my heart when I go to the embassy.

How funny.. It is mid July and I am already conserned what will happen in August.. that again reminds me the wize words of Jesus in Luke 12:22

Then Jesus said to his disciples; "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. 
24Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them And how much more valuable you are than birds!
25Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? 26Since you cannot do this verly little thing, why do you worry about the rest?


I should not worry about August, since I still have about 3 weeks to raise my 2500€ for the school.
Oh God help me not to worry about it !

Have a blessed day, and do not worry about today!

Liis

Summertime so busy

It is already July and I have been busy enough to miss my home! To be home with my dear cat and just enjoy the quietness around my home.
Summer has already reached the month of July and I have been to two camps in a row. I can feel how my body is just tired and my soul is looking for some peace!
I haven't written in a long time and I kinda miss that. I miss writing down my feelings (yes we sometimes have a lot of feelings, like my friend likes to say) wothout being afraid who might see them!
This time of the year will be somewhat emotional for me.
My closest friends are leaving for Texas very very soon, and my grandpa will return home as well. I haven't even spent so much time with them but already it is time for them to leave.
 Now I undestand what: time goes by so fast, means, because it has literally went by so very fast that I feel like I have missed some of the days.
But I can't tell you that I have slept through a lot of them because I haven't. It is just the fact that when you spend time with your people you simply don't have enough hours in one day!
I wonder how much sleep Jesus got when he was on earth! I mean he loved his disciples and the people he spent time with. Did he ever slept in? I don't think so! I bet they used as much of the hours in one day, they could! I have to ask Jesus one day!
But coming back to the summertime and the fact that it is already July.. Ohh my gooodness!!!
Is it just me, the fact that I am a girl, or it is just me?
I have so many different feelings coming up about September, that I just Cannot wait to see what God has planned for me!
I have definitely learned how to be more patient, how to be humble, how to share my dreams with people and I hope that God will continue to teach me and I am willing to accept whatever needs to be done in my life. 
And whatever happens in September, I know that God has the best plan for Me! Because knowing me I know that God knows me more. 
Jeremiah 1:5  

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew^a you,

before you were born I set you apart;

I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”

I mean how cool is that right?

So I have to trust my future in God hands and really, with all my heart. I am hopefully going to learn this cause if I don't I will be in trouble.

I am just so very excited to see what's gonna happen!

Ohh dear blog,

I just pray that I won't give up and keep on going in faith and hope, I have given in God!

"Dear God please be with me to comfort me and to encourage me throughout the summer, please keep me away from evil and the thoughts that are from evil! I want to be humple and teachable and I pray that my heart would be opened to you, soft like clay that you can use in molding me the way you see is the best, I pray this in Jesus name, Aamen"